I know who I want to be. It was a bit between May and Valerie - both are independent, attractive, smart women, but one, men tend to protect, and the other, they'd take care of if they had to, but she's a warrior in her own right. (My opinions, both.)

I'm going to be like May.

1. Men suck.
2. Treat them like lollipops.

I'll enjoy the taste if I so want, but I'm done with love. It used to enhance and legitimise my lust (gasp! I'm 20. Duh.). Now, the cost is just ridiculous. I refuse to keep paying for years, for the impulses that run through me now. I can enjoy the same tastes day after day - yong tau fu! But. I don't have to pay more than I'm willing ($3.50 for food = the next month for lust) and I just won't.

So now I feel a little cheated. Let false promises of marriage change my mind for me, lost a potentially mind blowing experience. But hey, you can be stupid once without being ashamed.

If it happens again, I'll be more pissed at myself than even Chun Min could be. Haha no more trusting men with the fulfilment of my soul. It may be achieved by pleasing my husband, sure, but if the man doesn't exist, there's another path I can walk. There's always another path. It looks to be capoeira for me and - I'll work at it. I'm not so good yet but hell. I may be slow but I'll get there eventually, if I keep trying.

And the capoeiras were apparently legendary lovers (!) so they were guys. I can be the female equivalent, no? :p

Eve.

Yet another ring on the tree at9:39 PM

1 Comments:

thank you for your comment in my blog, regarding men and relationships. I'll keep on trying with women. Maybe it is my curse ;)
Make sure you keep on trying too! :)

Kiss

By  Javier Marti, at 4:24 PM  

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