Sunday, January 27, 2008
Sometimes I wonder if I'm the kind of girl that was made for love.
It's silly. The beliefs I hold on love are pretty well developed, and everyone is made for love. You don't need any special characteristics - you're just lovable. Even if you're difficult or not very nice to some people, there's always another person you are kind to.
The only people for whom love does not work are the people who REALLY don't want love.
I'm reading Steppenwolf now. In it, he says a truth : even if there were people who wanted to love him, he drove them away. Until all he had was people who liked him, maybe sympathised with him, but did not love him.
I want to be loved. But not by my family, they will have to be left behind. I cannot be myself with them - I am too different. And I don't change easily. In some ways, I cannot change at all barring divine (LOL) intervention.
Does rejecting their love mean I am rejecting all love? Not to me. I don't reject their love. They don't know me, and have never known me. They cannot love me, if they never knew me - you have to love someone knowing all of them that you can know, ya?
Oh well. Rushing two summaries and a proposal. Even though I started both a week ago they are still somehow not finished. :'(
I hate smu. It's a very large smudge on the window of my life.
Eve.
Labels: life, love, opinion, shoutout