Tuesday, October 30, 2007
I have a true ability for procrastination.
And I apparently cannot decide on anything.
A lifetime's just too long these days, especially if you live in a safe country like Singapore.
So I just keep my actions in line.
I'm thinking before I talk a lot more. (yay!)
But I dunno. Emancipation's making me grow as a person - I shouldn't get hitched to the first willing Tom that I can stand, but be happy to stand on my own as an individual. And if I did that then I'd probably be working real hard to escape him.
But education pushes back the time frame when I can with good conscience settle down.
I have to graduate first. Then migrate, then meet someone.
It would be unfair to expect anyone to go with me after all. Even if I don't know where exactly yet. (Probably australia.)
And why do I even want someone? To split the housework with? Marriage is no guarantee he'll be faithful. That I already know.
Too many guys are creeps.
But the alternative's either going without, or friends with benefits.
And which friend would I be willing to lose? Given the strange relationship men have with their libido, and the irrationality it imbues them with, I'd have to be willing to lose them. Truth is, most of my guy friends are like bros anyway.
I guess my plan is just sitting and waiting again.
Ka will blow me where it wills.
Eve.
Labels: feelings, goals, love, opinion, random stuff, to think about