Tuesday, April 17, 2007
I know I totally rock. In a different way from the way I totally rocked a few days ago. I guess my total perfection also includes a problem with accepting rejection from certain quarters. And I really don't wanna be like him, (given my reaction when someone implied I was doing that) so I guess I don't really admire him. Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, no?
But his philosophy - if that even was his philosophy - has shaped me so I guess that I am just a little bit like him...argh. Don't wanna be so commitment shy I can't have a real friend even.
I guess I should make sure I don't go to the other extreme now I have realised this. I so should not become clingy and needy. Doesn't mean the person isn't important to me. Just means I wil let that person have his breathing space. If that makes sense to anyone but me.
And I studied more than 2 hours! today! Stupid changes in the stupid syllabus...
On another note, I started writing rather than staring at papers in panic once I'd had a bit of whiskey. Saved meself quite a bit of dough by buying the bottle straight rather than overpriced pre mixed drinks.
Guess I need to loosen up.
Only bad thing about it was that I was singing. While writing, I sang along with the songs that were playing but...then I started singing in the shower and there was no background music at all. So I really do get uninhibited. Or less inhibited. I sound like a frog usually. *Ribbit ribbit..Croak..*
Love,
Eve.