Monday, January 22, 2007
So I think I did ask him. Out. And the reply was inconclusive.:s I should've liked someone who wasn't so busy. Now I don't know if his "I'm not sure - get back to you?" is a subtle No, or if it's because he's really busy (which he is - and in which case i should just try again.).But then, had dinner with him (and a bunch of others) again yesterday. Twice in a week! Almost floating here.First tutorials start today. In two and a half hours...haha I'm nervous, I actually keep checking the time slot in my email, my timetable, and on CORS. over and over again. I think I'm going to go offline soon as I'm done with this, or I might go crazy with the cross checking and everything.Having too much time, I got to wondering lately - and again - why I was named what I was named. My name's meaning: "Precious, delicate, gem."
It totally sucks. It's a lovely name, I'm sure, but I think it'd be suited to a princess or innocent child. (which I once was but now I'm Stuck with it..)How am I supposed to be a mature independent type of person when my very name defies me! Sigh. I need someone else's opinion of me to be precious. I coud have been happy, or strong, or clever, I could work at being fast and I could have been faithful...But I can't be precious! Not without someone else's help.So annoying. I shall simply change my name to Briar Fern or something. If it's gotta be sth I can't be, might as well make it good.But Benny says that my name is okay as long as somebody somewhere finds me precious at any one point in time. Bah. I'm an INFJ. I'm a protector! (personalitypage.com) This is a horrid name for a protector. The villains would probably sit around laughing their butts off once they hear my charge call my name. Oh well. That would make a rescue easy. If they were all incapacitated by convulsing laughter.I feel soo much better after babbling all that out. :)Eve.