One momentous moment and everything changes.

But I'm now way different from the person I was three year ago.

Ben is not going to pleased with me though.

Since last night (June 9th) I've suffered a circuituous and sad route in my thoughts. I have the freedom I've fought for in some measure now, but I have only just decided on a plan. Only just restarted my studies.

[Side Note: Web resources on this subject have improved a great deal from my last sojourn.]

I'm only being cryptic because this matters and I've been wonderinghow to tell the ones it may concern about it without making too much of a deal about it. Like phone calls to specifically announce it would. And sms would've been a touch dumb.

But I can practically see the good from my change. I don't feel lacking. I don't feel the need to squeeze and squirm my way into the perceived notions of others. I am what I am. No conflict, or not much more than any normal kid.

I am at peace.

The childish visions I dream up now keep me happy and laughing, but I don't doubt my senses, physical and psychic.

[Everyone has the psychic sense, by the way. From what I've read, I can sort of conclude that deja vu, and coincidental flows of unconnected thought of two friends and unexplained hunches and feelings and things are all psychic. Need to read way more though..]

I did want to call and tell, but you weren't free.

I know. It's not what you want for me. But - I am whole again.

I hope that counts for something.


Love,
Eve.