Monday, June 19, 2006
I am alone in the path that I have chosen for myself.
It was my choice.
Who else can I blame?
"Only with suffering comes a true knowledge of joy."
But it hurts.
SO much...
The Man is social, an animal
of community
and loneliness.
The lack of one brings about the other.
How can a choice be made between two evils?
Evil would win.
Inevitably.
If that was the case.
Greater or lesser - is the difference so important?
How much does the self matter?
What is it worth?
Loneliness?
Community would seem the wiser choice.
But its price is high.
It brings out bitterness and anger.
Self hate and insecurity.
Misery.
On a smaller scale than loneliness. Is a big problem
Worth more or less than a lot of little ones?
What of honesty?
Integrity?
Self knowledge requires both.
But do you want to know yourself?
If the knowing
Costs all else?
Are you worth it?